Felicity, 19, explains how Busted helped her get over the worst experience of her life

Between the ages of two and four, I was raped. Although I was too young when it happened to understand what was going on, I knew it was wrong.

It was a member of my family who attacked me and he told me not to tell anybody about our 'naughty secret'. At the time, it affected me physically more than mentally. I was in pain and the attacks made me ill. My mum has since told me I kept wanting hot baths to make me feel better.

I was so scared by what happened that it took me a year to tell someone. I eventually asked my mum what 'naughty secrets' were. She now says she realised straight away what was going on but she stayed calm and didn't pressurise me to talk until I was ready.

Ugly

As I grew up, I hated all boys, apart from my dad and my brother. When my friends started to flirt with boys at school, I was like, 'Boys? Yeah.. whatever'. I thought they were all nasty and I couldn't trust them. I hated myself and thought I was ugly, and spent loads of time on my own. Back then, I didn't know it was because of the rape; I thought this was just 'me'.

Then, a few years ago, I started going to see a boyband called Ultra at TV studios. It was fantastic to get out and about, meeting them and their other fans. I was finally coming out of my depression.

Friends

Now I follow Busted and I've met them so many times at studios and signings that they recognise me. They're really easy-going and they make me feel like I'm friends with them rather than just a fan. We chat about everything they've been up to and I tell them about my job at a music store. It's wonderful - they seem genuinely interested and it's so touching to know they care.

Following Busted has helped me come to terms with being raped. They made me realise there are decent boys out there - and having good-looking boys pay me attention has really boosted my confidence!

Busted don't know about my attack but I'd like to thank them, and hopefully now they'll understand why I follow them. They've changed my life so much.