The Triangle - Part 5

After about 20 minutes of soaking your pillow with tears you finally sat up. As you wiped the remaining mascara from your eyes you looked at the small envelope lay next to you. Just looking at it made you feel so guilty and in pain. Sighing you stood up with the letter in your hand. 'Here we go..' you whispered to yourself. You texted letting him know you were on the way round to his and then on to 's house. A little while later you arrived at 's flat, you beeped your horn and waited in the silent car. climbed into the car a few minutes later. 'Hiya babe..' he said brightly leaning in for a kiss. As his lips pressed into yours you didnt respond. His face fell. 'Babe?' he said. You looked at him. How could he be so cheerful? You felt awful. Turning the ignition you sighed then said quietly 'You're about to lose your best friend..how can you be so happy?' You noticed the sentence slowly sink into him then began to drive. The 15 minute journey to 's house was spent in near silence. The only things that were said were by . 'Is this the letter?' he had asked after a minute or two of driving. You had simply nodded but continued to stare at the road infront of you. About another 10 minutes later he had placed his hand on your hand, squeezed gently and whispered 'It'll be ok. I love you and I hope you feel the same. We'll be ok'. To that you gave him the deserved smile and a small squeeze of his hand.

You stopped the car in front of 's house and pulled the keys out of the ignition. Staring at the letter in your hands you felt a tear momentarily sting your eye then roll down your cheek. You sniffed then said firmly "C'mon..lets go and do it' nodded. You both walked towards the house and he knocked. After a few seconds you were greeted with a smiley . 'Hiya babe!' he said happily leaning in for a quick peck on the cheek as your hand nervously hid the letter behind your back. As you felt his lips brush your cheek you felt sick. 'How can I be doing this to him?' you thought guiltily. 'Hey mate!' he said patting on the shoulder. Glancing at you noticed he must've been feeling similar to you, his face was pale and unusually sad. Allowing you both inside began to talk. 'So whats brought the both of you round? you said you were coming round after a sleep.. Are you feeling better now? mate..did you want something?' He finally finished as he slumped on his sofa you loved so much. You took a nervous glance at then sat down slowly next to . 'Um.. babe. . I've.. er.. I mean we've got something to tell you...' you struggled with the words. As you looked at his eyes you struggled even more. 'I've..um..written an um letter. It er explains everything...' you mumbled as you shakily held out the small envelope. had sat down opposite the both of you and was looking sick with guilt. 's expression had faltered slightly. 'W-what do you mean babe?' he asked taking the envelope then looking from to you. 'Just read it... p-please...' you said now struggling to fight back tears that had welled up in your eyes. He took a long look at you then opened the envelope and began to read.

You watched his eyes dart from one side of the letter to the next, over and over. Slowly his expression changed from one of confusion to one of anger. His head suddenly flew up staring between you and . 'You're together?' he asked totally shocked. You heard the anger. Dumbly you nodded. His eyes shot back to the paper he was now gripping so hard it was beginning to crease around his hand. 'Three weeks?!' exclaimed after a moment or two. The next few minutes were spent in silence as he continued to read. You stared at floor as tears flowed freely down your cheeks. When had finished he scrunched the letter slightly in his hand and stared at floor for a while. You could hear his breathing, fast and heavy. Then suddenly he stood up and before either you or knew what had happened 's fist had collided firmly with 's jaw. He took the blow hard and landed roughly on the floor. 'BASTARD!' he shouted down at him. You screamed in shock. ! No! Dont...please dont!' you cried standing up. He spun around to look at you. 'You bitch!' He raised his hand up to slap you and to your surprise you werent scared. 'Go on...' you said staring at him. The anger in his face was unlike anything you had ever seen. And he did. The pain in your cheek was like fire. Your eye was surely going to explode. You fell back onto the sofa holding your face staring up at . He was breathing heavily. You looked at who was still on the floor, him too holding his face where a red mark was steadily turning purple. You were glad he hadnt tried to stop from hurting you. The last thing you wanted was a huge fight between everyone. You and had both got what you deserved. Gulping you looked up at once again. He was looking between you both, then after a moment he spoke, his voice filled with hurt. 'Why?' You closed your eyes and sighed. That exact question was the only question you couldnt answer. 'I love her mate' said pulling himself up off the floor. The anger flew back to 's face. 'You are no mate of mine! No friend would do this!' he shouted at . ' please believe us when we tell you we NEVER meant to hurt you. Never!' you cried through your tears. 'It just happened. We didnt plan it.'

For a few minutes the room fell silent, the only noise being the tears and sniffs from you and the heavy breathing from both and . Finally spoke. 'Leave!' You stared at him in shock. 'We need to talk about this!' you exclaimed. 'LEAVE!' he repeated only this time it was shouted. Getting to your feet you wiped your face. 'Im sorry ...please believe me..' you tried making eye contact with him hoping that by doing so he would see how hurt you were aswell. It didnt work. Instead he was glaring at the floor. You felt 's hand on your arm. 'Come on...lets go..' he said quietly. 'Yeah! Fuck off and take her with you!' shouted at you. His voice cut like a knife. You felt as if your heart had just been torn open and the tears flowed so badly you thought they would never stop. Walking away from his house you broke down. Falling to the floor, slowed by you cried loudly into his shoulder. 'W-what have we d-d-done ?' you sobbed looking into his eyes. He shook his head obviously at a loss for an answer.

You cried for nearly two hours after leaving 's house, had driven you home. As you sobbed into your pillow for the second time that day a million and one thoughts ran through your head. 'What if I had just been strong enough to say no to when we first kissed? Why did I kiss him in the first place? I love so much! Why did I hurt him? Im so stupid. But I must've felt there was something lacking otherwise I would've never kissed in the first place..' Since returning from 's you had spoken little to . You felt really guilty to him aswell now... crying in your room over somebody you apparently didnt love because you went and had an affair with their best friend. Just then he walked into your room looking upset. 'Hey...' he said quietly as he lay next to you on the bed. 'Hey!' you sniffed in response. Looking into his eyes your doubts were laid to rest. You did love him. Thats why you had to hurt so that you could be with him without hiding it. 'Im guessing it was much more fun when people didnt know about us huh?' he said with a smile. You returned the smile which quickly turned into a small laugh. If he could make you smile at a time like this what couldnt he do? You kissed him softly then lay your head back on the pillow. Yes you had hurt . But slowly he would recover and he would forgive you. At the very least he would talk to you again, you couldnt bare to think how you'd manage if he didnt. But for now you had to live with the fact that you had had a love triangle and now it had broken. It was definetly for the best you decided as leant in to kiss you...